wow...a long time

It's most certainly been a very long time since i've been back here. Since October everything's gone so by so fast, what with My beloved father passing away in November, 6 days after his birthday too.

However i try not think about it too much, because i'm afraid if i do think about it i'll either go insane, or crash. It's not something that's easily forgotten or even easy to deal with.

Especially since dad and i were very close, and my beloved parents are my best friends, we've shared so much together, and we've even cried together. However i still try to perk up and look at it from a positive view.

Since there is absolutely nothing else i can do, but one thing that's funny to think about? My dad used to inspire me to draw, and continue with my artistic talent he believed that i had....he gave me inspiration, he provided me with my new sketches...

Yet, ever since he was admitted to the hospital and then passed away 3 weeks later....I've lost that ability, I've gone blank and completely dark in my mind.

I just don't have the heart to draw anymore, and in a way it makes me sad, but it's understandable, when you lose something that's precious to you and you cherish highly, it's easy to lose sight of yourself.

Because then you feel as if a big part of you is gone, it's been snatched away.

Or in my case...my heart was shattered, and i don't know if i can ever pick those pieces up.....do they even exist anymore?

Anyway, i think for now i'll take a little break from da, just until i get that inspiration back again...hopefully.